This is almost exactly my experience with leaving organized religion.
It was never about judgement, or not being able to be "righteous" enough, or anything like that. It was all about my feelings toward what I was taught as I grew up. It was about finding what would make me feel at peace with myself.
Just some food for thought...
what a read. i feel like i did something similar to this during the years i adopted my ex-religion. heh. that's a funny way to put it, given that my ex-religion was my ex's religion. i tried to make everyone happy by belonging, playing along. it was a total sham. i feel so authentic now that i've owned up to what's real and true for me.
ReplyDeleteand if the answer is "i don't know"? i'm fine with that.